Posts Tagged ‘patience’
We are home again!
You may have noticed that I took a small hiatus over the last couple of days. Well, we went up to Green Bay to visit my family, and I swore off using the internet. My parents also only have dial up, and well, I don’t have the patience for that. We drove back this afternoon and now are getting ready for Madison’s birthday party (which will be on the 5th). I have so much stuff to put away as is just from Christmas, so this will be an extremely busy week. Bill has been off for a week from work, so he’ll have a ton of catching up to do. I was sick for about a week before Christmas, so I let a lot of stuff just slide. Now, we have a major house cleaning to get done. I know it isn’t anything as difficult as rental property investment, but it is just as time consuming. Plus, we are trying to get the kids back into a routine. The trips up there are hard on them.
I am hoping to get back into the swing of things, but this week will be super busy for me.
Our Weekend
We have been running around all weekend. It has been crazy. Saturday we had a birthday party to go to. Sunday we had a baptism. Yesterday, we went to an event that our park district was putting on. Madison played on the slides and swings. Then we played in the sandbox. We looked at the bugs that they had displayed too. Madison wanted to set them free. They were even giving kids tattoos, but Madison wanted nothing to do with that. Lastly, we played miniature golf. It was only $1 a piece, so I was willing to try it. Let me tell you, it was interesting. She got the concept. She didn’t have the patience for it though. However, $3 for a couple hours of activities was well worth it. We went home then, took a nap, and then went to Bill’s parents for a BBQ.
That about sums up the weekend.
Thoughts on becoming a mother
I actually got this in an email, but have to pass it on:
There are women that become mothers without effort, without thought, without patience or loss and though they are good mothers and love their children, I know that I will be better. I will be better not because of genetics, or money or that I have read more books but because I have struggled and toiled for this child. I have longed and waited. I have cried and prayed. I have endured and planned over and over again. Like most things in life, the people who truly have appreciation are those who have struggled to attain their dreams. I will notice everything about my child. I will take time to watch my child sleep, explore and discover. I will marvel at this miracle every day for the rest of my life. I will be happy when I wake in the middle of the night to the sound of my child, knowing that I can comfort, hold and feed him and that I am not waking to take another temperature, pop another pill, take another shot or cry tears of a broken dream. My dream will be crying for me. I count myself lucky in this sense; that God has given me this insight, this special vision with which I will look upon my child that my friends will not see. Whether I parent a child I actually give birth to or a child that God leads me to, I will not be careless with my love. I will be a better mother for all that I have endured. I am a better wife, a better aunt, a better daughter, neighbor, friend and sister because I have known pain. I know disillusionment as I have been betrayed by my own body. I have been tried by fire and hell many never face, yet given time, I stood tall. I have prevailed. I have succeeded. I have won. So now, when others hurt around me, I do not run from their pain in order to save myself discomfort. I see it, mourn it, and join them in theirs. I listen. And even though I cannot make it better, I can make it less lonely. I have learned the immense power of another hand holding tight to mine, of other eyes that moisten as they learn to accept the harsh truth and when life is beyond hard. I have learned a compassion that only comes with walking in those shoes. I have learned to appreciate life. Yes I will be a wonderful mother.






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