AKA I feel like a bad mommy.
Guilt will do that to you. As many of you know, we had problems getting Will to latch on, and he got jaundice. Instead of messing around, I did what I did with Madison and pumped exclusively. I have been doing that since he was born. We are at the point that he is outdrinking what I can pump, and I had been supplementing my frozen (aff) milk. Last night, I did an inventory on the milk and realized that I have less than a weeks worth of milk left, so we needed to make some decisions. That is where my guilt comes into play.
I pumped with Madison till she was 4 months old. I quit because I hated it. I couldn't get my supply to reach her demand. I resented her. I resented doing. I figured it was time to quit. I am not at that point (yet). However, we are going to Green Bay next weekend, and if we are going to introduce formula, I need to do it at home (aff). Bill wanted me to quit pumping a month ago. I am not sleeping, and I am crabby all the time. I also can't get anything done during the day due to me having to pump all the time.
So I am giving in and feeling pretty guilty about it. I will be able to spend more time with my children by giving this up. We gave Will some formula this morning, and he didn't seem to mind. So why do I feel so bad?